Today made my mom feel close again. I went for my “wellness”
walk at 9:45 (my employer gives me 30 minutes paid to exercise each day—score)
and it was a beautiful cool morning. Even though the leaves are far from
changing in Texas it felt like autumn. I’m wearing one of my mom’s sweaters
today and walking around in the sunshine with the cool breeze, wrapped in my
mom’s clothes, made it almost feel like she was walking with me. I love “wellness”
time because it is really effective. I use the break to call family now and
then, but I prefer being selfish with my time and just reflecting in quite as I
walk around the ponds in front of JCK. It gives me time to kind of meditate and
refresh myself before going back into work and plugging along. The “fall-ish”
weather and thoughts of my mom didn’t make me sad. I missed her, but I also
didn’t need to. If she could see me walking around, thinking about the future
and all the hope stored up in it, she would be so happy and proud. That
thought, that I am leading a life she would be proud of, is what made her feel so close.
It sounds cheesy when I reread it, but it’s so true.
Mom, I’m doing great. The sun is shining, the air is (ever
so slowly) cooling down, your favorite time of year is close at hand. I’ve
started decorating for Halloween with paper cut-outs at work and a lantern at
home. I’ll tack up the orange & purple twinkle lights as soon as I find the
time. You’d be shocked to know I haven’t done any Christmas shopping yet, but I’ve
already planned where our tree will go. I hope this closeness sticks around all
season. It’s nice to feel like you’re still around.
I love you.
